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Bad Teachers and Egotistical Jerkwads

Journal Entry: Tue Apr 1, 2014, 5:58 PM




 Good lord, another journal. Well, sometimes I go for a month without writing one, so suffer! :iconinuevillaughplz:

I've been asked about this recently, so thought I'd write about it just in case someone else might relate or find it encouraging.

A lot of people are surprised to hear that I have only been painting since 2011. Well, it's true :o. I had coloured a few line arts here and there before that, but I never really tried at painting. I was dabbling and just slapping on colour, not bothering to figure out the programs or anything. Because I truly didn't believe I could do it.

 Backing up a bit, I'm someone who was a traditional artist. I have been drawing with pencils and paper since I was just a little tyke.  Naturally, I wanted everything to do with art in school. :iconhandsomeonionplz:

And that's where this little tale turns dark and mildly depressing :icon0inuscreamplz:

I had this teacher, in my very first ever traditional painting class. He was one of these types, that if any of you are planning to venture down the path of the art world, you will encounter in vast quantities.

 The Egomaniacal Jerkwad.
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I had my first ever painting assignment, but I had to do it in a very short period of time. Like, 2 days. Being the ambitious little twit that I was, I of course, tried to draw a large scenic estate, with some kind of snooty garden party going on ( I like cocktails and mini cucumber sandwiches, ok? don't judge my yester-self :stare:). That way I could draw fashions, and details. DETAILS. ( I.. am a bit detail oriented. It's a sickness).  But I hadn't realized how difficult it was to paint such a thing.
Because I had no idea what I was doing :o

But I tried. I tried my best. Over the weekend, I got maybe 3 hours sleep, and though it didn't turn out the way I would have liked ( instant Caravaggio :icongreatjobplz:  ). It wasn't that bad. I was a beginner. A painting virgin. I had a long way to go and I hoped to learn as much as I could. So I handed it in.

A few days later, this instructor calls me to review my work. And mark my words, I remember this like it was yesterday. I sat down in his office, and he had my painting there on his desk. I expected that he would speak to me about the problems, where I could begin to learn how to do this *colour* thing, like proper painting techniques, and maybe I could pick his brain about all the questions I had because yes, I really wanted to learn.

He looked directly at me, and said: " This is a piece of shit. It sucks. I dunno what to say. Painting is not your thing. But I can see here that you can definitely DRAW. You can DRAFT. But not paint. You have no skill or talent in that way. So from now on, just don't bother trying. Focus on your strength. Drafting.  Because again, you will never be a painter, It just isn't you, you stink at painting."

So, I was a young teen and very thoroughly crushed lol. It's a hard thing to hear, because what I didn't understand, was that I thought that I was at the stage of life, where I was IN school, and that he as an instructor was actually supposed to be teaching me something. he was the Painting Teacher afterall :o. But then I concluded, "Omg, he's the PAINTING teacher :iconorzplz: . He must know what he's talking about :( . I thought I at least had the capacity to learn, but I guess I'm so terrible, that he has no hope for me."

It's ok for you to start tearing up and send me hugs now. :icon0inucryplz:

No, just kidding lol. I only like hugging my dog.

But I believed this guy, and I abandoned painting entirely. I finished that class ( and now in hindsight, I realize he was never a teacher. he was a guy paid to sit in a chair and tell us to work lol).  I kept drafting and worked on lifedrawing and such.

Then insert another story that I don't care to share, but in a nutshell, on my journey thus far,  the single most toxic type of people I've encountered in art, are the egomaniacs. The ones who put everyone else down, and treat people like garbage, while singing their own praises.
The Egomanical Jerkwad is that guy in your art class who walks around the room like he (or she, I assume that's understood) is a walking God of Art. That their art is the pinnacle of the beginning and the end, the stars and awesomeness and other things.....awesome :o
They usually proclaim it on a regular basis, while at the same time, putting down everyone else around them. Do you have a tiny glimmer of talent in you? They will attempt to squish it like a cockroach  :stare:
They are a species of human that baffle me, as I, though not devoid of ego,  had just enough of one to let these people get to me .  I have a perfectionist streak that doesn't often allow me to enjoy my own artwork, and I'm forever analyzing all the way things should be better. In that way, I didn't build up my confidence level that serves as a shield against assholes. I was just one of these humans who could never imagine why anyone in a school setting would be a complete monster to others in that way, as to me, it's kind of a waste of time.

 But I was small and naive, and learned that sometimes, unless someone backs their van over an Egotistical Jerkwad, they might grow up and someone, somewhere, in a substandard school or job, might give them a teensy bit of power:iconstunplz:

So after getting burnt out by having something I used to love, become nothing but a source of constant suffering,  I stopped all art for a long time. For 2 years I didn't pick up a pencil, a tablet or anything.  I did not doodle in a waiting room, or even find a way to sculpt my mashed potatoes into a zombie hand rising out of a grave plot. I even got a job doing something completely unrelated. I was done, and started looking at universities that were as far removed from art as possible.
 The Egotistical Jerkwads had successfully killed art for me. I got a job at a respectable company, and I had to dye my hair back to black, take the ring out of my mouth, put on a SUIT and sit at a desk.

But you know what? All through that time, as lame and Made-For-TV movie as it may sound, I honestly felt like something was missing from my life. I felt different o__O.

  I had a lot of time to think, the job was death.  :iconheaddeskplz: Art was something that had been with me as far back I could remember. It used to make me happy.  I started drawing because I used to make these absurd little comics when I was as young a 4-5 years old, and they used to make my older brother kill himself laughing. And him enjoying them, inspired me to do more. As I got older, I realized that one of my greatest inspirations to do art, was to bask in the glow of other people getting a kick out of it. Yes yes, i know the mantra on Deviantart where everyone proclaims "You are not an artist unless you do it for YOURSELF." . :icontardarsauceplz:  Well that's fine for some,  but  that's not what kept me inspired when I was small :o . Making others, my brothers, my friends, laugh, or drawing their characters, or even drawing something that made my mother happy was what kept me interested.

So why did I let a pile of angry, miserable, thoughtless, Egotistical Jerkwads take that away from me? INB4: This is not regarding anything in the professional art world. No one should expect to be treated like a grinning, cherubic child when working in say, a studio. However, I still don't think there is any reason to be a bitter, megalomaniac no matter how old you are, or where you may work. I believe it's professional to treat people with respect. I don't buy into this culture where seeing how much of a beating people can take = their worth to pursue their own path. Whether that's professional or not. However, there are lots of different people in this world, and in a professional environment, you might have to get along with them.

Anyways,

 I took a leap in 2011, and on my crappy laptop, I decided to grab my student copy of Photoshop, and have at it. Paint.  No one had ever really given me a shot at it. Not even myself :o. But I decided to just try . regardless of what anyone had ever said to me. And I tried to give myself rules. I fail at them a lot, but I think of them like guidelines lol.

 
1. Finish what you start
2. Post it for feedback *even if you don't like it.*
3. Start a new piece.
4. Try to Paint or Art as often as you can. Even if just for 30 mins.
5. At the same time, if you just aren't feeling it, it's OK to take a break. It's ok to put it down.
4. Attempt something new, attempt to learn something in every painting. Don't stagnate.
5. Try not to beat yourself up.


 
So, since then I have been teaching myself digital art programs, and let me tell you, that was a frustrating learning curve :omg: lol. Simultaneously, I'm always trying to teach myself how to paint.  After giving up on it years ago, when a teacher stared me in the face and told me I sucked at it, and would never be able to do it.

"You suck. You will never be a painter."

I'm writing this not as someone who considers themselves a huge success now. I'm not exactly a popular artist on Deviantart, and I know I have a long way to go, and much more to learn.  But I succeeded at least in the way that I took something back that I thought was gone. Instead of leaving it behind, and letting it leave nothing but a bitter taste in my mouth, I realized that only I, myself had the power to "kill art" for me.  In the end, it was my responsibility to stop wallowing or running from possible failure, and at least try. Even if no one believed in me. Even if people wondered why I was wasting my time.
 No one was sitting on my hands or anything. It was basically a battle raging on in my own head.

 You have to be objective in your life, and just because a teacher, or senior, or someone who you look up to tells you something, it still might be wrong. It might be for terrible reasons. It might simply be careless and insensitive, or they might even think their doing you a favour.  There are lots of reasons why people say hurtful things, but if you have perseverance, the desire to learn and improve ( and for people like Koji. some anti-anxity medication and a decent therapist to talk to once in awhile), you might actually surprise yourself and find a way to push on and accomplish things no one thought you could. :iconsupertighthugplz:

Believe in your own skills or aptitude, try to cut the power negative influences have on you, and push forward even if you can only muster the strength to do it a little bit at a time. That's what I'm doing~

Isn't that a touching story? I'm done publicly feeling now for about 4 months.

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    SnK: Captain Levi by K-Koji  ZACK FAIR by K-Koji
Kuroshitsuji: Claude Faustus by K-Koji












 

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PukingrainbowsArts Featured By Owner Edited Dec 15, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Cereal Guy in HD by CrusierPL
" This is a piece of shit. It sucks. I dunno what to say. Painting is not your thing. But I can see here that you can definitely DRAW. You can DRAFT. But not paint. You have no skill or talent in that way. So from now on, just don't bother trying. Focus on your strength. Drafting.  Because again, you will never be a painter, It just isn't you, you stink at painting."


 Cereal Guy Spitting by Rober-Raik     

SnK: Captain Levi by K-Koji  Asian Fusion by K-Koji  Kuroshitsuji: Ciel and Sebastian by K-Koji




If you're teacher were to see your artworks now, I think he'd swallow those words. You sure proved him wrong- your digital paintings are absolutely stunning XD !Just goes to show, with hard work, determination and persistence plus the drive to do the things you love , no matter the negative feedback thrown at you, it's possible to achieve it!! =D

 I'm all for constructive criticism, but when they tell you , you "can't do" or "will never be" something, that's where I cross the line. There's always room for improvement as you have beautifully demonstrated... :)
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K-Koji Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2014
 thanks :heart: :iconsupertighthugplz:

 lol Though I doubt I ever want to see that man again :XD:
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PukingrainbowsArts Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You're so very welcome XD :heart: :hug:
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FatalSystemCrash Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm a little scary to go to art class now :c XD
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EpicNinjaArtist Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I died with happiness when i saw this TuT just because something similar happened to me :D and i can relate to this somewhat eheh
I hope you feel good about yourself when you draw, knowing that you inspire the crap out of new artists or artists that havent had much motivation such as myself OuO
Just a genuine thank you for this journal ^^
i kind of needed it right now QuQ so bravo with perfect timing hehe :XD:
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NeraBoo Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I know I'm a bit late writing here, but I can't help but mention if I was in your shoes I would probably send that asshole teacher some of your paintings with a little note "You said something about my lousy painting skills?" just to see him go red in the face.

That would be the most epic artistic payback I've ever seen...
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K-Koji Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2014
:XD:

 I just dont want to bother with him again ;P
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NeraBoo Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
True enough. Well, that's what I would have done, not what you have to do. If you're happy with letting sleeping dogs lie, then that's that. :aww:

Still would have been an awesome sight...
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K-Koji Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2014
 I bet it would! :huggle:

 Like.. " So THAR you wretched, untalented man >:[" lol
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NeraBoo Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:rofl::lmao:

Like I said, WORTH IT!!!
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FoxMaiden04 Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
My teacher kept telling me to do realism or scenery with painting, he always got so angry with me saying I need to be like everyone else and stop drawing 'cartoons', I never touched a paintbrush till 9th grade o_O so yeah... it was horrible, I think my 7 year old cousin could do better XD 
But my art style is anime style, even if I try my best to draw a portrait, it still looks that way, I've accepted that as my style and I love it ^-^
When I first saw your art (Vincent Valentine) I actually cried and grinned from ear to ear and promised myself from that day to never give up on art.
I actually am still mad with myself from stopping sketching for a few years, I could've been so much better by now. ^-^

Also, did you teach yourself how to draw or did you have guidance? (I'm self taught)
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K-Koji Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2014
 Hi

 I'm glad you were inspired by one of my artworks :hug:. How flattering for me ^^

 And yeah, i taught myself how to draw basically, though I did eventually go to some art courses. Altho, they weren't very good. They were more like...don't teach you anything and give you a terribly huge workload. Then they see who sinks, and who swims. They kicked out the people who could not keep up.

 Basically, if you didnt have the ability going into the courses, you would never make it :o .
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FoxMaiden04 Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
XD no courses for me then! ^_^ I'm inspired by all your artworks, it's all so beautiful I can't choose a favorite! Blush Emote 
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Denahi Featured By Owner Apr 5, 2014
Budding creators should be nurtured, not trashed... I like getting critique, but if someone whose opinion I trusted would tell me I could never make it as a writer --> instantly crushed.

It's not exactly similar, but one of my teachers killed my love for music for years; my elementary teacher was also the school music teacher, and he considered his own class as a perfect opportunity to force his fancy on us. I played the piano before and had nothing against more music, but somehow his way was more like treating us all like idiots if some of us failed to play the right notes than actually sharing any love or enthusiasm... We were forced to play the flute more than anyone cared, and if one of us failed, we would spend the next hour (which was supposed to be math or biology or whatever) actually drumming the tables with our pencils, trying to learn perfect rhythm. It got so far and so unpleasant that after I left that school, I stopped playing the piano and didn't listen to music for years.
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rinukon Featured By Owner Apr 5, 2014   General Artist
Thank you so much for posting this.

I used to be really enthusiastic about art. Practically all I ever did was draw, and when I wasn't drawing, I was painting (more digitally than traditionally). So naturally, I was really excited to start art school last Fall.
It all went downhill from there.

Most of my teachers were really full of themselves and always judged my art harshly without actually giving helpful advice. You could see that my work was getting worse and worse because the teachers were pushing me to use techniques I'd never used before within a short deadline.
Since then I've become less and less motivated to do art at the fear of it not being good enough to meet other people's expectations.
For the first time in my life, I'm failing school and I'm afraid that I'll end up poor and unsuccessful in anything, and in debt.

But your story's really raised my spirits and encouraged me to do art for me, and that it's ok if it's not always up to par, just to keep at it as long as I'm happy. I realize that the worst that can happen as long as I don't give up is that I major in some other subject that even mildly interests me, but I will always have art to make me happy, even if just as a hobby. Because art doesn't judge me. Art is a friend that will always be there and wait patiently until I'm ready to pick up a pencil again.
Thank you.~
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Thrasirshall Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
:glomp: I'm glad you went ahead and followed your own path - it's possibly the most difficult thing to do when some like that puts you down so hard D: 
Cause really - your work is amazing. And I'm not just saying that, you put so much dedication into detail and you pour love into what you do. It's honestly just... idk, it's uplifting, really. 
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charcoal1carly Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2014   General Artist
I know you have a huge amount of comments on this, but I have to share my similar experience with you.  In college I took a painting/pastel class.  I had been drawing all my life and didn't really know how to paint.  At the end of the semester when the professor was going over my portfolio of work he asked what my plans for the future were.  I said I might go on to an art school and develop my fine art skills.  He laughed and said, "honestly I don't see any potential in you."  I didn't know what to say, I just said, " Well, painting isn't my thing -  drawing is."  He also said I wouldn't make it living in a big city.  He was one of your Egomaniacal Jerkwads.  I saw his paintings and I wasn't impressed but he thought he was all that.  It's nice to know that I wasn't the only artist to experience that.  You are amazing and I wish you would fine that guy and shove your work in his face.
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K-Koji Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2014
 That's awful :[

 Yes, that is also an Egomaniacal Jerkwad. I just dont get those people.I really dont. Even if he didn't really know enough to judge your art skills ( which no one can tell from a lone class or piece), Im not sure what these jerks have against TACT. Or manners. Its like they think they are so ahmazing, that they simply dont have to treat anyone nicely anymore.

 And it's wrong.

 :hug:
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charcoal1carly Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2014   General Artist
Thanks. :) Huggle! 
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winry7405 Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I was lucky enough to have wonderful, supportive parents (my dad an amateur painter himself) and good teachers. Art was my favorite subject in school. Though I myself never thought I was something special or anything, but I remember one of my art teachers getting really impressed with my abilities. "Girl, what are you planning to do in the future?" he asked, obviously implying I should pursue a career in art, but unfortunately that didn't happen. I ended up studying biology and abandoned art completely. Many years passed and I was about sure my talents will remain sleeping for good, until I discovered deviantART. Yes, I must say it's this website that inspired me. I suddenly found myself buying colored pencils (nostalgic feeling from childhood) and starting to draw. Even if it's still just a hobby for me, I enjoy it immensely. I must say I've never heard anything very negative about my art, I guess I've abandoned it after my failed attempt to get into an art school when I was a teenager. But I'm sure glad I've rediscovered it again.
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K-Koji Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014
 That's awesome you rediscovered it :nod:
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Silver-Tao111 Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014
Wow that teaching instructor guy reminded me of my mother when I was starting out!

And this journal was quite inspiring to me! I wish I saw it about seven years ago, but it wasn't made then, was it? :XD:
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K-Koji Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014
 Hey, never too late! ;P
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Arvellas Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014
In his memoir, On Writing, Stephen King shares a similar story.  When he was a kid, his older brother got hold of an old, beat-up printing press, and set it up in the basement.  The older brother used it to run an amateur newspaper; Stephen used it to print off horror stories, which he then distributed at school.  One of school staff summoned him to the office one day, confronted him with one of the printed stories, and said, "You have talent.  Why do you waste it on junk like this?"

He kept writing horror stories, obviously, but he felt guilty about it for a long, long time.  He says he was forty years old before he realized there is not a writer in the world who has not been told they are wasting their talent.
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K-Koji Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014
 That's amazing! I had no idea! Thanks for telling me that :nod:
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CelestialxInferno Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No words can possibly describe at how inspired I feel because of this journal.
Thank you... Thank you so much for posting this.
It was the last push I needed to draw again.
I can't help but feel I was partially in your shoes in some aspects, except I haven't truly returned to what I actually loved.
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K-Koji Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014
 oh thats great. Happy creating :D ! You'll feel better once you start
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LoveMySockhead12 Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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K-Koji Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014
 :iconletmehugyouplz:
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LoveMySockhead12 Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:iconsupertighthugplz:

xD
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iAmoret Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
This is a wonderful advice!

I've had similar experiences, on a much smaller scale, but still pretty painful. Mostly just art teachers that love every scribble that other students do, but my 3-hour drawing he/she tells me to start over, because it needs to be 2 cm closer to the edge :grump:
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Snowy-Ninja Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014  Professional General Artist
The only bad ones i had were during college, my secondary school teacher she was nice always telling me to try and draw something other then what i knew. When I entered college I instantly loved my photography teacher who was chilled, my life drawing teacher who was awesomesauce and my 3D teacher who put up with so much shit from me because I swear to high heaven that I should never be allowed near clay.

My drawing teacher on the other hand I wanted to punch him to because he was so matter of fact, he basically made me feel like shit about my drawing skills. But he was the one that snapped me out of the rut i was in always drawing manga never looking at real life like i should and never once did I consider other art forms. So while I hated how blunt he was he made a good point. 

My traditional painting/graphic design/digital arts teacher (who didn't know how to use photoshop so i had to stay behind with my photography teacher to learn) was a right bitch. I had never met a teacher so up herself, she never wanted you to be you its always do what she liked because nothing else was right. My other teachers were always trying to push me in new directions and of course succeed because hell they seemed to care about what we wanted to be. But she was just so urgh I wanted to just quit her class yet could not. My fashion teacher didn't give a crap about any of us who didn't know how to use a sewing machine so she only hovered around/helped three maybe four students.

When I entered University it was a breathe of fresh air really! They were like so you want to be illustrators/animators we love you we want you to improve and it just felt like a family. The class were awesome and the teachers so friendly. Shame my actual university is a bag of shit! 
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K-Koji Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014
 It seems like such an obstacle course to go through when all we want to do is learn D:

 Glad you found nice teachers eventually tho :nod:
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Spudfuzz Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I feel bad because I've been on Artist-Confessions for a while and tons of people always submit their experiences of horrible teachers but I always had really good ones. Not that I don't believe them though, I've met enough general fine artists with super snooty attitudes who'll make words up to impress themselves and say "juxtaposition" every 5 seconds. I did have parents however that didn't value anything remotely creative, had narcissistic tendencies and the only job they'd consider to be "real jobs" are their own. Sitting on a desk all day filing... files. How positively thrilling. :facepalm:

I ended up getting kicked out of home due at 16 to conflict of career choice (I stubbornly wanted to do pursue creative endeavours) and they'd tell me things like "It's been 3 months since you've been gone and we've never been happier" or one time when I was briefly living with them again; "You're not part of this family, you're only here to pay rent." That just fuelled my desire to climb the ladder of skill and one day become successful with my art.  I caught a snippet of an Oprah show once and she was talking to a young guy in his 20's who worked from the ground up to become a millionaire. He talked about his past, the bullying and people saying he'd never get anywhere and she interjected that "The best revenge is success."

I wonder what your teacher would say if he saw your art now. :iconteheplz:
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K-Koji Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014
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 Sorry to hear about your parents not being supportive (or... nice even). My father was incredibly indifferent to all my art until he saw companies are starting to pay me money. Then suddenly " Oh, Do you have a link so I can show my friend Roger? :o" ( lol @ that). He still has no clue about art, and I really dont think he even grasps that what I do takes a LOT of time, and studying, and patience, and that I cant have them magically fall out of my ass everyday LOL.
 I'm super lucky though to have a very loving, supportive mom.

 and hey, that's great you had decent art instructors. I'm sure there are lots out there :nod:. I just had a very unfortunate turn of events lol. Though it *is* true though that if you work in any kind of studio environment, you will be exposed to some of the biggest egotistical douchebags alive :XD: . You might get lucky and avoid them. I just keep an eye for that type and thank god for freelancing because it means I can work mostly by myself :XD:

 How are you enjoying Canadia thus far anyways?

 
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Spudfuzz Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Nah that's ok, I got over it a while ago so now it's a story to tell. I don't mind if people don't understand the finer technicalities of art, but just to be against the endeavour simply because they don't personally value it themselves just crosses the line into assholism. Your father is funny though, a lot of people will suddenly start paying attention when they think there's potential for something bigger. I'm not sure if there's lots out there, people's confessions lead me to believe there isn't but I think what it boils down to is whether the instructor is actually passionate for the topic at hand. They tend to be far nice and more relaxed in general. ^^;

I think freelancing is the way to go for most artists. Majority tend to be introverted and highly individualistic. Dunno how I'd feel about having to work with others. :noes: As for Canada, the weather is like the twilight zone. It's supposed to be spring right? The birds think so, but the snow doesn't. It was practically all gone two weeks ago then a massssive dump came down again, and is currently still coming down. It was even snowing when it was +5 degrees! I didn't know it was possible. And then the other day a huge flock of European Starlings stripped the Crabapple tree's pretty berries bare in under an hour. Damn you nature! :shakefist: The birds were funny though because they looked like little fat round balls with beaks. ( I still like it here though and I'm applying for a visa to stay)
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K-Koji Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014
 "I think freelancing is the way to go for most artists. Majority tend to be introverted and highly individualistic. Dunno how I'd feel about having to work with others.

 Omg :iconthisplz: :XD:

 aha. That really sums it up for me too.

 ...and yes, technically its spring here >>. Im just happy it's above freezing lol. Best of luck with your Visa! :hug:
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zummerfish Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
That's a great journal and a great advice.

I had something similar happen to me years - only it was academic drawing and the teacher actually tore my work in half, in front of the class too. I started to have lots of self-doubts but then again art was much too compelling to give up completely.

Overcoming events like that and perfecting what you have an inclination to, that's what should important. Not opinions, and certainly not conforming to whatever conceited academics say. Your way of art is what matters.
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K-Koji Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014
 omgad thats terrible what happen to you :[

 I had a teacher throw on of my drawings on the floor without looking at it ll. He just said " Its not good enough". :o
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DarkRukia91 Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Some teachers are like that, only caring about their job and not the students. I just dropped my math class, it was suppose to be a self paced class but it has way too many rules and too much work to be self paced, it was too difficult and I already have problems in math. When I told the professor about the class and how difficult it was for me all she said was "Okay, well at least you tried"with a smile...now in my mind I'm like thats all? And then I told her how it really wasnt a self paced class then she gives a smirk with a face and said, "no it is a self paced class"...She didnt seem to have a concern for the student or how hard the class was...as a matter of fact when I first joined the class another professor was explaining the syllabus(going over class rules etc) and she said "If you dont like/agree with this class, just leave quietly" So with that statement it seemed like people have complained about the class before and instead of taking the complaints to help students, they just ignored it. It's bad enough when you have teachers in K-12 not caring about the students and only their jobs but its worse when it's in college, you have more than just American students trying to learn and get an education.  

And as for the egotistical jerkwads...I have noticed that people who are really good or professional in art are snooty and have an ego bigger than their balls (or tits) and put others down...I never understood this. Why would you put someone down? Arent humans supposed to help other humans? People who are skilled are supposed to teach others that arent and help them out with their future but instead you got them showboating and saying "I'm better than you"....such a shame. At least there are some people out there who do care though. sorry for the long comment XD
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thetaoofchaos Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014   Writer
The guidelines are good for writing poetry, as well.  I'm happy the jerkwads did not win in the end.
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K-Koji Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014
 I try to follow those guidelines I set for myself, but I usually falter on a few lol. Like the one one about being too hard on myself :ohnoes:

 but I always try and keep them in mind as much as possible.
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WhollyJeff Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I was born in 1951. By the time I got to the University of Colorado, I knew that all I wanted to do was Fine Art. Abstract art ruled, and conceptual art was just making an entrance to the art scene. Although the U of C was just a regional university, it had its share of Bad Teachers and Egotistical Jerkwads, who seemed to think they knew everything about art. After reading your above blog, I am wondering if those people felt entitled to be negative because they were fearful of your obvious skills and abilities.
To me, at the time, it seemed that the Abstract and Conceptual art groups had very few who could draw worth a damn, and so, being defensive about that lack, only encouraged others like themselves.
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K-Koji Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014
 Ive had a few people who knew me back them suggest that this teacher tried to squash anyone he saw emerging with talent, purely out of bitterness. He never really had any stunning career in art. Ive done far more now than he ever had and Im still just at the start of my art journey ( or so I feel).
 So you have a point there. Ive seen some super egotistical artists try and put their peers down as well, in an attempt to thin out the pool of competition.

  I can't be in the same room as those types for very long. Their negative energy strangles me o_@.
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WhollyJeff Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
They do seem to deplete one's energy. I'm not sure, but creative communities seem to attract this kind of personality.
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K-Koji Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014
 I think creativity brings out extreme personality traits sometimes :o. But just a theory.
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herradurra1 Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014  Professional Photographer
I hear this, and I do suck and am never going to be a painter, but it's still not fun to hear after a 14 hour day.  I'm like, I had to take this class for my major, fuck off.  If I ever have to paint another damn azalea, we're going to assume that I'm in a POW camp and it's torture, all right?  Just give me a good enough grade to get the university to reimburse me.

Ugh, let's drink to bastard teachers and all they taught us.  Which is, how to drink.
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K-Koji Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014
 Yes D: LOL. *cheers*
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mittens150 Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014  Student General Artist
If he said that you could DRAW and DRAFT, then you shouldn't try to improve on that, you should try to improve on what you "can't" do. How else are you supposed to get better?

In my opinion, it should be the goal of all teachers not to earn money, but to teach. As in REAL teaching, not just CRAP teaching.
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K-Koji Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014
 He was a terrible teacher...

 well, i dont even think he would qualify as a teacher tbh. I can say, I learned nothing from him :/. He just gave out assignments, told people they sucked, and never told us how to actually do anything. It was like, you had to already be a painter before you went into the class :o
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